Damn. I thought I was an emotional disaster a few weeks back. I had no idea how many more levels of emotional disaster I could still climb.

There’s something wrong with me and I don’t know what. I’m tired of being on the edge of losing my shit most days. I keep losing it enough each night.

I’ve spent the last 5 years not shedding a tear. Not letting my emotions move beyond a set line. Letting so very few peek out when necessary and then shoving it all back inside. Now it all creeps out farther then I want it to. The thoughts, the tears, everything.